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you caste me away i should have know this would happen i was stupid to hope it wouldnt you blame yourself. ask if im mad im not. its not your fault its mine...i was stupid to hope just go...dont even think about me i will disappear...you wont hear from me a mere shadow of myself shit happens i can only hold what i feel so much shit adds up maybe someday... i doubt it im not worthy of your efforts, of mine all i have are my imperfections ive been forced to forge them into armor its all i have left i must now do battle with myself i may never come back this war is one that cannot be won nether side will withdraw neither to

why do you do this to yourself? you put yourself through so much shit and say i should leave ou i cant. not while you need me it doesnt matter. i need you more than you know. you say you dont know why i wish i knew...then i could help but all i can do is watch while the one i love goes through hell i wish i could help i wish i knew what to do but no one knows no one knows these depths of hell you need something more something more than i can give you i have failed you you never tell me until after all has passed like some demon posesses you and you only regain control after it is too late one day yo may go too far and yo